Email #3

Always from me to Sunshine.

Dearest dearest Sunshine,

You have no idea how excited I was to get your email. It honestly made me cry...All the awful things you went through, and the amazing testimony you have. I can't imagine how horrible it was, and I don't think I'd be strong enough for that, but you were. And you have such an amazingly positive outlook on it still. I really feel lucky to be your friend. I would be your guardian angel anytime--I feel like it would benefit me more than it would you! I really love you Sunshine, and I miss you so much. I love that you replied and are still worried about how my life is going. It really makes me feel loved.

I don't doubt that you are disgusting. :) But I've always liked that lion hair. Haha. But just think how amazing that shower is going to be when you finally can. Soon you will be better and soon you will be clean. I would get you a jamba if I were there, but you know...I'm not there.

My romance life. Um. Right now it's like the opposite of romance. Yeah, I think I'm basically done with Charlie. I wish he would go to Church though...Collin and I will keep trying. I just keep hoping that he'll have some amazing spiritual experience and remember what it's all about, but it hasn't happened. I appreciate your prayers for him. And yes, I know Collin and Charlie sent you a card. It wasn't even my idea either. They are just sweeties.

As far as Peter goes...well...I thought I was getting good signs. Until I went on Peter's Facebook profile and saw that he is "in a relationship with Emma so-and-so." What the heck? I couldn't figure it out--I mean, he and I have gone on dates. There's no way he could have a girlfriend. And I don't even remember him ever mentioning an Emma.

So I questioned Mark. Apparently Peter's girlfriend (this Emma girl) went to India to teach English or something. They broke things off when she left so that they both could date around and stuff. Which explains why he's gone on dates with me. Mark said he doesn't know if they'll get back together or not when she comes home--it could go either way. So I carefully brought it up with Peter. Apparently they've been dating for about six months. I asked when she comes home. When he said the end of June, I said that must be exciting. He said yes. I asked if he missed her and he didn't respond. I said that was probably a stupid question and he said yeah. So it looks as if he still likes her. Which sucks.

I can't say I'm all heartbroken or anything, but I am disappointed. I thought maybe I should date Mark instead (he and I have SO much in common it's insane) but that would always be slightly weird since I'mm more attracted Peter. And that wouldn't really be fair to Mark.

Argh. Boys are a disappointment. No more about them for now. I have too many random stories.

Also, I think if Matt doesnt leave you alone I'm going to stab him in the eye. Ok I would be nicer than that. But seriously. Can I talk to him? I promise to be nice. You should give me his email. I won't argue with him. I just want to email him.

Man, did I tell you you're amazing? And congrats about sky diving. Also, Castro...yeah, I don't even want to go there. You're totally right--so trashy. I love my "moho's." It's a shame that there are so many disgusting gays in SF though. And you know something? Charlie loves going to gay clubs in Castro. SO SAD. That boy...*shakes head.*

Oh man this email is losing focus. I'm tired and Julie is going to call me cuz I haven't talked to her for weeks. Sorry this is ending lame. You should read my blog for more info on my life. I'm too lazy to type it twice. Hahaha. You get the more detailed stuff though of course. I love you so much Sunshine. I miss you tons. And I will totally go see Hairspray with you! Have a good week. I hope you get to feeling better. Just read some good books to pass the time. Love you tons!!! Muah!

Natalie